Ramble On

This is my very first blog post (besides with Xanga 6 years ago - what a nightmare!).  The title of my post might be recognizable as the Led Zeppelin song title.  You know what I find really strange?  People who wear the band t-shirts but don't even really know the band.  It drives me to discuss the music with them only to discover they only know one song if that.  There is absolutely no knowledge about the music or the history of it.  There's something about the earlier Led Zeppelin that really touches my soul.  I like how their music is romantic and beautiful in a sort of rough way.  There's a certain unexplainable vibe that comes through that music.  A plus is that there are many Lord of the Rings references in the lyrics.
"If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.  If mountains crumbled to the sea, there would still be you and me.  Kind woman, I give you my all."

Unfortunately, I'm beginning to feel disconnected from my music.  What happened to spending every free moment listening to music and making up songs on my keyboard?  Why did I stop playing violin?  Why don't I try to improve on the guitar?  Music makes the darkness in my heart more bearable.  A sweet melody seems to carry my heart and soul and makes sadness beautiful.

I feel most myself when I listen to The Moody Blues.  Are You Sitting Comfortably? is one of their many phenomenal titles.  It combines mystery with adventure, and I am enchanted by the beauty of the tune and lyrics.  It makes me want to explore the world and beyond Earth.  I want to see and feel magic. 

School isn't doing it for me.  I was expecting to be completely immersed and interested in my studies in college, but I'm really not.  I admit, my classes are much more interesting than high school, but I wish I could take one class at a time and not have to be under pressure to get so many credits out of the way.  Don't be fooled by my calm exterior; I become overwhelmed easily.  It's a lot of hard work, but I know I'll get through it somehow.

The only thing I really miss about high school is my friends.  They say you meet your true friends in college, but I met mine in high school.  I have met some Awesome new people, but there's just not that same connection as with my old friends.  Some of my good friends are still in town, but I barely get to see them because I have to make time for hanging out.  
Hopefully things will become more chill so I can devote time to doing what I love and spending time with those I love.
Poem I wrote during the summer~

 Opportunity lost
Like a farewell wave
Love floats away across the ocean
Was that good-bye?

Moment not grasped
Fear overtook me
Pasted on smile
There's more to say

But I do not say
"I love you"
I cannot utter a simple
"You're amazing"
Or even
"I hope to see you again someday"

There's more
More than the smiles and the hi's
so much to say
so much for you to know